The world today through my eyes, by Wes

Get ready to hear a lot of content in my blog that may be boring to some, interesting to some,(hopefully) and may even sound crazy to some people. I'll start out telling you a little about myself, since I'm the owner of this blog. I am a 39 year old man, living without any employment for the last couple of months, no money, no job opportunities, turned down by unemployment compensation, (so far;...I'm fighting it:) and only eating what my family, neighbors, and city's food program supplys me. I know that seems pathetic, but I kinda' brought it on myself. In October, I quit a job I've had for almost 12 years, making a little over $20/hr,due to a lot of reasons. Primarily, I quit it due to health and safety reasons. I worked for a major Cable company, and for the last couple of years I have been having trouble dealing with a progressing fear of heights. As you know, this type of fear is not safe or healthy to have on a day to day basis when you are in that kind of work. I could not get up in the morning and look forward to a day at work, and would actually feel sick before starting my shift. I usually didn't let my fear overwhelm me to the point where I could not preform my job duties satisfactorily, until the last four months or so. It did effect my job performance a little bit the last couple of years, but my Supervisor was still pleased with my work overall. It was all coming to an end though, and did end after problems with my attendance. If I did not quit, the company would have fired me for attendance problems, within a couple of days anyways. My Supervisor looked shocked as I handed him my resignation. I was in shock too, because I knew I probably couldn't get another job making anywhere near the same amount of money. It all happened just a couple of weeks after I almost fell  from my ladder. This was the second time that month that I had a close call. I didn't have this type of fear when I first started working in this indusrtry, but recent natural back injuries and leg pain the last few years, have taken my confidence away while climbing. Many times I would be up on a fully extended ladder, and the fear would enter my mind, and my leggs would uncontrollably shake, causing me to be even more afraid of a possible fall, sometimes over a gate or fence...or pitbull!
I know it sounds kinda silly, but I really couln't keep on working there under that kind of pressure. The people who still do work there have some kind of super powers or something, considering climbing isn't the only stress associated with the job. There were many other stresses I was having to deal with there at the same time; from showing up late to appointments, irate customers, dogs, overly friendly cats, working without help on big jobs, shortage of equpment, keeping my work van clean and organized, crawlspaces, customer home phone and security alarm issues, company always adding new job responsibilities, and trying to improve personal production numbers to satisfy the company's big wigs, even when the numbers' criteria was seemingly structured to make us fail. I had been talking to my supervisor in private meetings with him about some of my frustrations, for over a year prior to my resignation, but I couldn't mention to him about my ever-growing fear of heights, until I quit, because there was nothing else the company had for me to do. When I first started having problems, I tried to apply for a job within the company for the Theft Department, in which I was fully qualified with my experience as a team leader in the local Leakage Dept., and all my bosses told me I would probably get the job. But, a new hire I trained just happened to be a cop, and the company decided to choose him instead. So there it is, I lost a good paying job, and can't even find
a good  $10/hr job here in Michigan due to this messed up economy. I have however, been using this time away from working, to learn more about computers and the Internet, and I think I wan't my next job to be more along the lines of that. I know how to fix computers, (for the most part) and now I  am a Webmaster, and I have recently earned several certifications in programming and Web design, and I am trying to get a new home business off-the-ground. I will continue my bloggs later, but if you or anyone you know in Michigan in the areas of Garden City, Westland, Dearborn Hts, Canton, Wayne, or Livonia needs a hand with their computer or programs, or mabe they can't get their internet working or some cable tv problem, have them call me at the number provided at my site. Or just shoot me an E-mail! http://hpch.wes.pro.tc/
home-pc-help@live.com  Thanks for reading, and merry Christmas!